People overreact to things I do socially, emotionally, and in the school world. I went from a childhood of being accepted to being told suggestive things about what I do and do not deserve, often because of being mixed race, Eurasian. I made a website presentation of it here:
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Friday, January 30, 2015
Gymnastics + Ballet
That's too much transportation for me.. might be fun to get a behind the scenes job at Macy's. Wonder how many hours I'd have to do, tho. I have to put my future somewhere. Trying to get in a movie, but I never get called back. Wonder if I will lose weight. I probably could. Might get bored when my Disney pass runs out. So, if they call me back from the wait list I'll have to say no for now. I'm always tired and hungry, anyway, so I have to give and take, too.
Schedule
I had to start watching Ellen today while on the computer. I was filling out a Disney visitor's quiz the whole time. It was slow loading.
Ellen
Jimmy Fallon! This was pretty great! He was definitely great. Ellen seems to have more self-confidence.
Cia? Great musical performance. There was a dancer in front. The people were all standing in boxes. I saw a light go on between Ellen and the dancer but looked away part of it. Cia will sing for..the Grammys? soon??
They had some people roll down and knock down bowling pins. It was so funny!
Ellen is a great person. I love what she tries to do for others.
Calling it a night.
I'm both craving and bloating right now. Not much of the food I want in this (here) house.
Dr. Phil
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I do pretty good for not hitting things now.
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(topics to be on the show)
not exactly, close but no cigar
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You know, I always wanted big hips. Since a small child..
I do pretty good for not hitting things now.
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(topics to be on the show)
not exactly, close but no cigar
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You know, I always wanted big hips. Since a small child..
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Work
So, I "went out and partied," but I want to focus on finishing my submission to Dr. Phil. A tweaky tweak here and there. I felt so bombarded with like things. I took a walk and listened to music and ate some.
New Plans
Instead of Music Ed now, I will continue to "perform" and "work out" and do beginning adult gymnastics. There is also intermediate/advanced. I am on a waiting list. I will do ballet in its place until when I feel a need to start.
My goal in my head was to perform for money and then go back and get a Doctorate of Music Education. Sad thing is I am not finished with my Bachelor's. I think I only got 1 year done. Quickest I'd graduate disregarding general studies is possibly 2 years. I was burning out. Lotta people went there to waste money. They disappeared soon after the school year began. They looked cooler. I guess their parents must have supported them. I wonder if the way it wasn't so good socially is why I was told to leave, as well.
If I don't go back and can't get into Music Education, I dunno what I will do. Also, it seems hard to have a baby while in school! Especially with making money!!
I could always sell a video of me dancing or something and doing some gymnastics. I have good form. The dance is ballet. The other goal is to make it in a famous movie. I just don't know if I will lead in 1 way or the other, but now it seems like the other. To major in Music Education when I have the money to party in college. Or I might keep up performing? Argh! I need physical activity. Maybe I need to stay on a break from college and use money to exercise. I'll consider it a break, maybe. I wrote a book and maybe will write more. Maybe, I'll at least have pocket money. I don't see a future in the performing arts. Acting is a desperate field but also competitive. I will work on getting in shape, maybe, and see if that's good. I might want to stay in gymnastics, tho. I'd be one of the oldest gymnasts. This sounds like a good "project." I really wanna do the gymnastics. So, it'll be a break from college even more. :( I feel like I'm getting older. Before, it was the other way around. I was gonna miss out on the gymnastics/ballet. I got so excited cuz there's a wait list I'm on now. For now, also, I will go to Disney each week with my 2nd annual pass I've held since moving here 10 years ago and 9 years ago permanently.
So, to summarize, I was going to do Music Ed now. I decided to do gymnastics and ballet, while I take a break from college. It will be good for me. I will do Music Ed later. I may make money off selling something or getting in a movie, in which case I will have more money while in college. I wanted to go to college with the money I'd make being famous. I got excited when I was put on the beginning adult gymnastics wait list. They also have intermediate/advanced. :)
My goal in my head was to perform for money and then go back and get a Doctorate of Music Education. Sad thing is I am not finished with my Bachelor's. I think I only got 1 year done. Quickest I'd graduate disregarding general studies is possibly 2 years. I was burning out. Lotta people went there to waste money. They disappeared soon after the school year began. They looked cooler. I guess their parents must have supported them. I wonder if the way it wasn't so good socially is why I was told to leave, as well.
If I don't go back and can't get into Music Education, I dunno what I will do. Also, it seems hard to have a baby while in school! Especially with making money!!
I could always sell a video of me dancing or something and doing some gymnastics. I have good form. The dance is ballet. The other goal is to make it in a famous movie. I just don't know if I will lead in 1 way or the other, but now it seems like the other. To major in Music Education when I have the money to party in college. Or I might keep up performing? Argh! I need physical activity. Maybe I need to stay on a break from college and use money to exercise. I'll consider it a break, maybe. I wrote a book and maybe will write more. Maybe, I'll at least have pocket money. I don't see a future in the performing arts. Acting is a desperate field but also competitive. I will work on getting in shape, maybe, and see if that's good. I might want to stay in gymnastics, tho. I'd be one of the oldest gymnasts. This sounds like a good "project." I really wanna do the gymnastics. So, it'll be a break from college even more. :( I feel like I'm getting older. Before, it was the other way around. I was gonna miss out on the gymnastics/ballet. I got so excited cuz there's a wait list I'm on now. For now, also, I will go to Disney each week with my 2nd annual pass I've held since moving here 10 years ago and 9 years ago permanently.
So, to summarize, I was going to do Music Ed now. I decided to do gymnastics and ballet, while I take a break from college. It will be good for me. I will do Music Ed later. I may make money off selling something or getting in a movie, in which case I will have more money while in college. I wanted to go to college with the money I'd make being famous. I got excited when I was put on the beginning adult gymnastics wait list. They also have intermediate/advanced. :)
Where I Am
I've done some work on my Dr. Phil submission. I guess I need to be ready like I'm already there. I wanna go to bed early, guess I got until midnight. Maybe, go celebrate with some cake and a leisurely walk.
Oh, and work, my meds are in the way. I need a degree to do something I love. I also submit myself to act periodically, as they take submissions.
Oh, and work, my meds are in the way. I need a degree to do something I love. I also submit myself to act periodically, as they take submissions.
This is amazing!
I wrote like a sentence worth for each huge paragraph of around 10. Now to skeletalize it even further like the diagrams that make it on the sho'.
What I'm up To
I am rewriting my letter to the Dr. Phil show so it's more to the point and arranged.
Something to Make Me Feel Special This Summer
30 hours in the kid's classroom for college education classes, each requiring 15.
I think it's Summer A and the kids will be there 4 weeks. 1 class is 3 1/2 hours a day 2 days a week. The other is online. Diversity is in the classroom.. They have that kinda thing everywhere.
I think it's Summer A and the kids will be there 4 weeks. 1 class is 3 1/2 hours a day 2 days a week. The other is online. Diversity is in the classroom.. They have that kinda thing everywhere.
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