My dad started being a whipper of me to be more than perfect, like no one thought I was.

I'm probably better for my mom than my dad is.

I realize I can't change the past but pray for my mom to be well.  Same for my dad??  Why doesn't he like the gym?  Too late?

Funny when my mom was Chinese my dad was effeminate.  Why not transfer to other people altogether?  Makes no difference.  I don't mean disown them, unless they become a social danger..

Wrong

My mom thinks she's at my service that I'm my dad.

They wouldn't prevent other Americans from reaching their dream, but they don't seem to have their ethnicities down.

No one can care about how I'm like my mom.  Then, I can't be compared to my dad.

How is my dad bad?  You just have to find his button and hit it.  I don't have to do that tho.  If you wanna push me to do it, what about suffering yourself?

Being Native American

I was thinking about being indian and that no one seems to innately know more than others about sorta lining the issues up about people with indian.  They would just pick like a baby doll as like a car model to shout out orders.  Like with me, people go in and say what you expect them to say about me.  No one ever has anything to offer me as a person.  They just know I'm related to an indian father and Dutch Chinese-Indonesian mother.  I'd have to say my mom is more white than my dad except that my dad possesses actual European traits from a Caucasian race.  I wonder if his mom had problems.  With her, the indian came from her dad, also, and none from her mom, tho her mom also had Ashkenazi Jewish I think.  I don't know why my dad has a harder time being indian than my mom has being Chinese, except I know it's easier to be all one ethnicity, like it's more attractive.  I bet a lotta mixed ethnicities without minor European ethnicities are part Native American indian or like Ashkenazi Jewish.