Friday, February 6, 2015
I think I did something.
I told a girl, "You still making that bacon?" I really believed in bacon. I had it.
All You Need Is..
You have to realize how much you love others.
Fighting when they're mean? That's unimportant. Or getting upset at them for being mean.
Fighting when they're mean? That's unimportant. Or getting upset at them for being mean.
Ate
Wheat Crackers
Cheese Sticks
Sausage
Salad
-lettuce head
-olives
-black olives
-carrots
-broccoli
-oil
Pear
Cheese Sticks
Sausage
Salad
-lettuce head
-olives
-black olives
-carrots
-broccoli
-oil
Pear
What if..
Like you wore your hair a certain way and someone else dressed just like you and had a wig like you and pretended to be you?
Issue
They keep trying to mutate someone to be like me but probably able to make it better. And to cancel me out in the process. That would not be a necessary part of that feat, and unless you're magic and don't care about anything in the world .. I don't see how you'd do it-just like that. It's nice to wanna be just like me. That's what at least 2 major young girls in my life wanted..
Facebook - Leah Kristen Roth
(29 Reasons NOT to Visit Florida)
You know, you've lived here awhile. I'm from Florida. What this said all made sense to me why they said it. Florida is like New Orleans cuz it's in the South on the water. Everyone in the Northeast likes anywhere on the water, even in Western PA + NY state..
You know, you've lived here awhile. I'm from Florida. What this said all made sense to me why they said it. Florida is like New Orleans cuz it's in the South on the water. Everyone in the Northeast likes anywhere on the water, even in Western PA + NY state..
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Dr. Phil Submission Update
These people react negatively to every little thought that comes to me or try. I don't see myself getting out of this. I don't want to lose my relationship with some of the people involved or want them to behave right.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
Dr. Phil knows these 2 aren't in love.
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They could get arrested for knowledge of the truth that they are taking drugs and they know.
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They could get arrested for knowledge of the truth that they are taking drugs and they know.
Submission to Dr. Phil
I made a background page of all my problems that I keep that relate to the show: http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/drphil. Now, my problems, in a way, all started out with online bullying. I explain more on my page. I was hesitent to fall in and sign on Facebook and MySpace back in the earlier 2000s. 2 friends visited me, somewhat strangely, but don't talk to me now, like they managed to get rid of me. I lost all my friends from real life because of not talking to me online or who knows why. Some aren't even online. Anyway, I went on to talk about Johnny Depp and to try to find out about auditions for more Pirates of the Caribbean movies. I would post a lot and sometimes about how I used to live where he's from when I was 2. They would fight me and tell me off and I'd be upset back but not very bad and they'd kick me off. When I was on the MySpace page for the 3rd Pirates of the Caribbena movie, everyone left when I came on. I was stuck alone for a long time. When I started posting on IMDb about Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and their movies, I posted normally but sometimes more interesting things about the movies, when they were there to goof off a lot too, and they told me off, to leave, called me an idiot kinda a lot (like my screen name Fastidious, "Fastidiot,") acted like it was cuza my race, which I think they got worse when they knew I was part Chinese. It was because I was new, they thought I was a rebel not to have come on earlier. I started posting on the social board/s of the IMDb Message Boards, and they kept calling me Mongy so many times I found relief in throwing my broken laptop against the wall. I was crazy. I had punched a lotta holes in my wall, the 1st which was pure accident. I hit because I was mad on the Johnny Depp board without much thinking. My parents heard and since ruined my life by acting differently. I went to a spa lady's home to get my blackheads removed. I think she damaged my brain with the suction. I thought before Tim Burton had gotten "sock accounts" on IMDb and called me not white a lot, like the other people. I thought that since his daughter was part Jew I caught the message to play around with her and in a fun sorta "fake online fun" way the command to call her the n word. Then, the whole world seemed to find out and now hates me. My argument was that I thought they wanted me to do it. I said to leave me alone with his n***** daughter. Whoever it was or whoever ordered it seemed to be teasing me or getting a message out of the way. I met a boy I liked online, too, and he wanted to marry me but now does not. He was from England and about 40 years old but looked young and nice. He hasn't talked to me in awhile, and I'm not sure why. Maybe, he has other things to do. He got me very mad, tho, when he wouldn't talk. I think he didn't marry me cuz I didn't say yes right away. He stopped talking to me cuz he posted a panda bear and I didn't want to be picked on for being Asian, think it was obvious. The other thing that happened via the internet was I started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. She put cameras and speakers around my room and had noises that annoyed me all day, including things that happen on my computer, like every time it loads now. A long time ago, this was done, 2005, except the messages weren't as annoying and weird. I started cursing about it a lot, and now I think Ellen hates me and tries to frame me with getting everyone I know to hate me. --- I would prefer to get on the show for the fact that everyone I meet is mean to me but cuza these thing that happened online, so I dunno what to say about that cuz I'm also trying to get on the show for this. I've been contacted for 2 submissions so far but didn't get on the show.
Dr. Phil Submission Update
Noises in the House
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These people will constantly tell me things in secret that bring pain becuase if I deny it they will do something else. They won't listen and keep acting like I did something to myself/others to deserve this.
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These people will constantly tell me things in secret that bring pain becuase if I deny it they will do something else. They won't listen and keep acting like I did something to myself/others to deserve this.
Dr. Phil Submission Update
link
(under Relatives)
My Gramma made loud noises that seemed to affect my mom's cancer, and I ended up after a minute getting upset at her, and she acts like she doesn't know why. I had just thought something against her, and I guess she wanted to know.
(under Relatives)
My Gramma made loud noises that seemed to affect my mom's cancer, and I ended up after a minute getting upset at her, and she acts like she doesn't know why. I had just thought something against her, and I guess she wanted to know.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
earlier
You know, drug usage seems rampant. I thought if you catch someone, you go to jail, unless you tell, like drunk driving, which you can go to jail for, maybe if you kill someone, for 30 or 40 years, even if you get in the car of a drunk or "give them the keys." The only problem with all this is that person might hunt you down when they get out. It would be something to be suspicious about if they were hunted down. People go with the flow and just smile thinking about this.
You know, drug usage seems rampant. I thought if you catch someone, you go to jail, unless you tell, like drunk driving, which you can go to jail for, maybe if you kill someone, for 30 or 40 years, even if you get in the car of a drunk or "give them the keys." The only problem with all this is that person might hunt you down when they get out. It would be something to be suspicious about if they were hunted down. People go with the flow and just smile thinking about this.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
earlier response to fan
I've never been in your shoes but know exercise is needed.
I've never been in your shoes but know exercise is needed.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
Baby Boomer grandbaby! So cute!
I have a site of kids, meself:
https://twitter.com/grobansson
https://twitter.com/grobansdaughter
:) Thank you so much for sharing.
I have a site of kids, meself:
https://twitter.com/grobansson
https://twitter.com/grobansdaughter
:) Thank you so much for sharing.
Dr. Phil Submission Update
link
---Noises in the House:
------People or aliens put noises and cameras around my room. The noises send me specific messages somehow that bother me a lot. They won't quit. It also is affected by what happens on my computer. Like, a page will load certain way or the hourglass will appear at random. They send me annoying messages that dig into me and hurt me and make it so I am never alone and under a bad influence I do not like.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
I wouldn't wanna get that closet to a lotta people out there. They just don't get when it's time to stop. Usually, these people are obese/laid back. People are simultaneously telling others who like me that I like that it can't be, like the hot teacher or the cool classmate. People jus thave that weird sense of judgement around me.
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It's better to help those around you than to become sicker yourself.
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It's better to help those around you than to become sicker yourself.
Dr. Phil Submission Update
link
Threats
---My Dad:
------My dad literally feels he won't let me be happy with people I meet and threatens them to not talk to me and be nice to me and make me feel good. He does this thru secret messages.
---My Mom:
------She said I have to take medicine I don't need to live at home and says I can't move out when I want to. I mean, I might need some help. I'm worried about having to move right now, and the medicine makes me too tired to work. Also, seeing my dad be mean around the house does not help.
Edit
I edited my submission to Dr. Phil to include problems with celebrities on that little website I made. I shouldn't have told them all about the celebrities when I e-mailed back. I wonder if I will be recontacted. I shoulda given more of a rap on the normal problems, like "spending money I get as allowance"
Kitchenwork
I chopped up the sausage and chicken and cooked it. Hand too tired for rump roast. I jogged with weights today.
Groceries
I got like all produce it seemed and fresh meat and healthy crackers but Triscuits being what they had, which are good. Not sure if I got much else than that.. veggies, fruits, meat, Triscuits. I had 3 cheese sticks tonight. Didn't make a salad since my dad threw up in the sink. Time for bed soon or another snack 1st of those crackers and not sure what else, another piece of fruit? I had a green banana, not a plantain.
Submission to Dr. Phil
Hello Dr. Phil Show!
Here is my submission:
1. Who would participate?
It might be better if I did it alone because my case is mostly about me and the rest of the world but also how I feel in my current living situation, which I do live with my parents. If I need anyone to come, my dad is willing to be present. I am willing to ask my therapist, if she wants to participate. I already asked her, but I'm not sure what happened, like if she wasn't able to leave a voice mail yet since I changed #s and didn't realize it. Perhaps, my mom would participate thru writing alone. I am willing to have anyone contacted, old schools, old teachers, etc. I just don't know who will respond. Friends, if they wanted, tho I have none now in real life. Extended family also exists. It's mostly about me and how strangers respond, tho. So, I don't know if you think a 2nd party is needed. You could see if old teachers remember me, for example, tho. They often had good things to say about me before and my social life then. My relatives may be willing to talk but unable to come to the show.
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2. PLEASE ATTACH several recent photos of yourself and anyone else involved in the situation, including full-body shots as well as up-close smiling shots. (Before we can consider you for the show, we absolutely need pictures from you – It’s very important for us to be able to put a face with a story, especially since we get so many submissions!
I attached my photos.
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3. Explain your situation in brief detail – if possible, give 5 specific examples.
(1) People always called me shy, sweet, nice, smart, perfect, and an angel growing up. Now, everyone is cold to me and expresses hate and in a way total racial discrimination like "bye, seeya, I don't wanna talk to you." My friends even all seem to have abandoned me, what friends I had and to interesting kinds of degrees of friendship. People are mean to me it seems by sensing my conscience and smelling me out as "guilty!"
(2) My biggest problem is one of my latest big problems. I used to think Ellen DeGeneres had people who had cameras and speakers hidden around my room, house, and who knows where else make little noises to hurt me cuz I was bad she thought. I would hear ticks around the room sometimes. My computer screen would creak. The pages on my computer always seem to be controlled in how they load. They make me self-conscious. It all started out in 2005 when I thought one of my singing teachers in college was watching me and speaking to me with little ticks. This was fun, tho. Years later, 2012, the noises come back but now in a mean way. I like the people who did it at some points, so I don't want them to stop because I said this.
(3) The problem with my last problem was that it hurt me. So, I used to curse on my blogs. I think Ellen reads it and got mad but didn't act mad until I stopped. It's not nice to have things thrown at you like this. I am upset that I supposedly am bad to Ellen and she thinks all these things about me like I did them, like I wanted to look ugly or was a little bloated and therefore unpresentable. Who knows how to prevent that? We all wake and go thru the daily grind. She has a stand against me and makes other people suffer for her to bother me, like I see guys getting mustaches and beards now and probably other things. People in glasses is another one. I was only cursing because the noises bothered me so much. She wouldn't stop.
(4) The problem that set us all off was I thought Tim Burton was posting online to me in sock accounts on the IMDb message boards. I thought he kept calling me not white racially and I hated that and told him I was white. I thought I got a secret message to call his daughter the N word because her mom's part Jewish and it was to make race seem fun. So I said to stop bothering me with his n***** daughter online like I thought they wanted, esp. after calling me not white over and over. They were wrong to make me think that because I would never do it on my own. It is also wrong all the people online being mean to me: kicking me out for no reason pretending it's because I posted a longer post or included things about my personal life they weren't interested in, acting racist towards me and telling me I make no sense and to leave constantly, keep calling my Mongy when I want to be as Caucasian as I can be.
(5) The people I know are all pretty much mean to me. My parents or mom said I have to take psychiatric medicine as long as I live with them. It makes me tired and I think gave me diabetes and also high cholesterol somehow. In diabetes, you can go blind, get in a coma, have seizures, or die, etc. Pretty much everyone in the world acts like they know me however they do and I feel is constantly laughing in my face and letting me know somehow the bad thoughts they have of me. I think the news of these things spread throughout the world somehow, maybe because I blog, and that I'm secretly famous worldwide and even in the universe with aliens. So, people are all picking at me for every little thing that goes wrong with me I feel, like if I inappropriately shy away from someone, if I think of a curse word by accident and they can tell, I get mad about these weird punishment thoughts people make for me, etc. Also, my period got very light because of a small tumor under my pituitary gland under the brain. It was from a psychotic drug, Risperdal.
Summation/Important Things to Know About Me:
It might be important to know I used to hear things in college and I thought the voices were real. It seemed real, not just me sitting unaffected hearing voices in my ears. The voices were outside. I listed about my experience with magic on my website at the bottom: http://christinabarrett4.wix.
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4. PLEASE ATTACH any documentation you have in reference to the situation (i.e. Emails/Videos/Facebook Messages/Text Messages etc.)
This is the link I sent in of information last time, which had some of that information listed in categories:http://christinabarrett4.wix.
The most relevant link is some of what's contained in old blogs when I get upset a lot, it seems: http://christinabarrett4.wix.
Here is another with some helpful documentation, like about college: http://
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5. Have you or anyone involved in the situation been contacted by anyone at the Dr. Phil show (or been on the show) before? If so, please tell us what you were contacted/on the show for.
I've been contacted to be on the show. I sent in my submission and someone contacted me back. I sent in more information, and someone else contacted me again to submit more information, which I did. So, that's 2 people in a row that contacted me for 1 case. This was only in the past few weeks.
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6. Are you currently in on-going therapy?
Yes, I even listed links of my therapist talking on the website I sent of my problems under Video Footage:http://christinabarrett4.wix.
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7. Have you been diagnosed with any mental disorder?
I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar, and autism (Aspergers.) I was first told in Louisiana I was fine and to go home after a week in the mental hospital. They said I didn't really have schizophrenia, which was my original diagnosis, and they just put it there for functional use. I would probably be off the pills soon. When we moved to Orlando, the doctor said the only reason he diagnosed me again was because I was diagnosed before. I do not believe it, but I have been on pills for these things and the pills are a burden because they make me tired and more obese.
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Thank you!
Thank you!
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
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Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Submission to be on Dr. Phil
Yes, there are things I've done in my life, tho not perfect, was told I was perfect all the time: quiet, shy, sweet, smart, and too perfect. It seems these things have surfaced in my adulthood. I don't really know which problem would be the worst. The one that started it was since a kid realy forgot to write my cousin. I coulda tried harder to do it. I guess the biggest joke was when my dad came home from work I said, "Oh, no," and no one asked why. I was not finished with my homework yet and was shy around him, etc. I was hospitalized I think for losing my 4.0 in high school and put on pills. That was 16. I was put in again after I thought someone wanted me to call them the N word online after calling me not white over and over. Everyone seemed to find out, people around the world seem to know. The biggest problem thusfar, other than people bothering me, is that I cursed a lot about noises in my room I thought someone put there. If you'd like to know, I thought the person online saying I wasn't white was Tim Burton and his toddler daughter. The 2nd problem was I thought Ellen DeGeneres put the noises in my room and I still believe she ordered this to be done, along with others. So, I'm saying because of things I did by accident while being a really careful person that people are mean to me for 2 reasons: not being all white racially and for what I've done.
I have a link to my life's story of the problems made for the Dr. Phil Show: http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/drphil
I have a link to my life's story of the problems made for the Dr. Phil Show: http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/drphil
Dr. Phil - Facebook
No, i general I don't lie. There are times when half lies are appropriate. In fact, I'm very forward. That's like lying about your manners.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
(response to fan on mental insititutes he says girl needs to go to cuz he's an ER worker and she keeps coming back for no reason)
Those places are of poor quality, tho.
Those places are of poor quality, tho.
Well, I'm up.
I think my dad's home and I don't feel like doing any work. Dr. Phil is on a show again this morning.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
I've had a lot of problems with the truth about medical things. I'd like to sue for a small tumor that made me lose my period's heaviness. I don't even have the illness I was medicated for. http://www.christinabarrett.com/.../dr-phil-facebook_54.html
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So, it's for money from her mom? If she can't produce the medical records, it's because she can't.
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So, it's for money from her mom? If she can't produce the medical records, it's because she can't.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
I was lied to about my mom cuz I heard at 1st she was fine and then she was thought to be dying from bone and breast cancer. Coincidentally, she just had surgery on her right eye for a detached retina. Even more coincidentally, she said 2 car accidents put pressure on the side of her eye/s and made her wear glasses. I don't think my mom should be in glasses, now.
Another coincidence for me to bear in mind was once it just came out of me to say to the music teacher's daughter in 4th grade, "I'd rather go blind than wear glasses," when she got glasses. Also, when my mom got glasses, I said someone caused it who got really mad cuz I said they were m.. in pleasure of my mom's getting glasses. After that, she had her detached retina.
Another coincidence is I had styes or pimples on my eye. It still gets more red and along the line it looks pink, my lower left eye.
I took the drug Risperdal for schizophrenia, which I do not have, but I was told. I lost my period and was so sad. I got off it, but it's very light. Supposedly, it's a small tumor under my brain from the brain scan, on the pituitary gland.. When I 1st went to the mental hospital, I said, "Don't give me any medicine." They said okay but called my dad and got permission. I moved and went back to another mental hospital which was much much worse and even very bad, for adults this time, and the Asian doctor said I had it only because they said I had it before, tho they told me they "just put it down" for now and after a little while on the pills I'd be off most likely, "cuz they didn't wanna see me with medicine." We moved to a Chinese doctor, my mom and I, and he said I had no problems and nothing was wrong with me. I asked for something for my digestion, and he gave me these like large marble sized balls to chew on. I was 16, 3rd year of high school. I was called to the counselor probably for being more laid back and losing my 4.0. I used to be in more activities, a lotta them, clubs etc. The counseling got in the way of physics and math. They thought I could just catch up and learn at home I bet. I think I still held an A or B in those classes then.
That girl lying about cancer? The medical world is mighty fuzzy. Sometimes, I just say I lost my period, but no one gives a care. It used to be heavy and pleasurable after I took a break from school.
Also, my mom and I tried to get medical withdrawals so far with no luck from a failed semester of college here in Orlando at the community college online. My complaint is that I was supposed to be on a break from college according to my real college. So, I wanted an excuse for missing the withdrawal deadline. They didn't even wink an eye. They were just set on keeping their record neat. There really was something funny in the air. I felt it consume me. I never miss withdrawal deadlines but for twice. The other 6 times, no. I got withdrawals then. It was really because I fell apart when I lost my major in music: singing, music education, and piano as a major instrument. I just could not think, didn't practice, and lost energy for summer school and so on. I was withdrawn by others twice, as well, those working in the school offices. They claimed I was not well. No one ever convinced me it was okay to take a small load, as tho it wouldn't impress or maybe wasn't enough work. I just ended up like this. Even when they tried to recommend me less work, like in high school I wasn't convinced they still thought I was as amazing. The mental hospital just woke me up and I later wanted to change schools and I did and got the grade, changed twice. A total of 4 high schools, technically. 1 an arts school on the side for me more.
I can say that my doctor at the time of my Fs said I had fatigue. They didn't think it was enough, all the saying I needed a break. Now, the meds I don't need make me tired and I am attempting to go back, again. My mom says I have to take the meds if I live here, tho it probably gave me the diabetes. :(
Another coincidence for me to bear in mind was once it just came out of me to say to the music teacher's daughter in 4th grade, "I'd rather go blind than wear glasses," when she got glasses. Also, when my mom got glasses, I said someone caused it who got really mad cuz I said they were m.. in pleasure of my mom's getting glasses. After that, she had her detached retina.
Another coincidence is I had styes or pimples on my eye. It still gets more red and along the line it looks pink, my lower left eye.
I took the drug Risperdal for schizophrenia, which I do not have, but I was told. I lost my period and was so sad. I got off it, but it's very light. Supposedly, it's a small tumor under my brain from the brain scan, on the pituitary gland.. When I 1st went to the mental hospital, I said, "Don't give me any medicine." They said okay but called my dad and got permission. I moved and went back to another mental hospital which was much much worse and even very bad, for adults this time, and the Asian doctor said I had it only because they said I had it before, tho they told me they "just put it down" for now and after a little while on the pills I'd be off most likely, "cuz they didn't wanna see me with medicine." We moved to a Chinese doctor, my mom and I, and he said I had no problems and nothing was wrong with me. I asked for something for my digestion, and he gave me these like large marble sized balls to chew on. I was 16, 3rd year of high school. I was called to the counselor probably for being more laid back and losing my 4.0. I used to be in more activities, a lotta them, clubs etc. The counseling got in the way of physics and math. They thought I could just catch up and learn at home I bet. I think I still held an A or B in those classes then.
That girl lying about cancer? The medical world is mighty fuzzy. Sometimes, I just say I lost my period, but no one gives a care. It used to be heavy and pleasurable after I took a break from school.
Also, my mom and I tried to get medical withdrawals so far with no luck from a failed semester of college here in Orlando at the community college online. My complaint is that I was supposed to be on a break from college according to my real college. So, I wanted an excuse for missing the withdrawal deadline. They didn't even wink an eye. They were just set on keeping their record neat. There really was something funny in the air. I felt it consume me. I never miss withdrawal deadlines but for twice. The other 6 times, no. I got withdrawals then. It was really because I fell apart when I lost my major in music: singing, music education, and piano as a major instrument. I just could not think, didn't practice, and lost energy for summer school and so on. I was withdrawn by others twice, as well, those working in the school offices. They claimed I was not well. No one ever convinced me it was okay to take a small load, as tho it wouldn't impress or maybe wasn't enough work. I just ended up like this. Even when they tried to recommend me less work, like in high school I wasn't convinced they still thought I was as amazing. The mental hospital just woke me up and I later wanted to change schools and I did and got the grade, changed twice. A total of 4 high schools, technically. 1 an arts school on the side for me more.
I can say that my doctor at the time of my Fs said I had fatigue. They didn't think it was enough, all the saying I needed a break. Now, the meds I don't need make me tired and I am attempting to go back, again. My mom says I have to take the meds if I live here, tho it probably gave me the diabetes. :(
Dr. Phil - Facebook
I've grown an stubbornness to stay fat. Who wants to die fat? Oh, and I weigh close enough density to those 2 guys. I lost weight from a high of maybe 165 pounds at 5'2" and am now 5'3" and about 150.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
response to fan
I had a very minor tumor under my brain. It was from Risperdal. In the end, I didn't need to do anything. I had lost my period. It's very light now. I did get 2 brain scans, which were not fun cuz I had to have a needle in my arm.
I had a very minor tumor under my brain. It was from Risperdal. In the end, I didn't need to do anything. I had lost my period. It's very light now. I did get 2 brain scans, which were not fun cuz I had to have a needle in my arm.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Ate
pack of mac and cheese shells (not the good kind)
cooked okra
I don't feel so great. I wonder if there's an apple in the kitchen for when I get hungry again.
cooked okra
I don't feel so great. I wonder if there's an apple in the kitchen for when I get hungry again.
Disney
The lady said the game was impossible and all chance, but I am close between what I want and something bigger. Waffle balls in rows of holes. Some have colors of 4 sizes of prizes. I want the 2nd 1.
So
Ya'll wanna forget about me?
I was trying not to talk back.
I should not take this seriously.
I know people don't wanna hurt me.
Well, I really have a question about my race, and the statement was interesting and made sense.
I was trying not to talk back.
I should not take this seriously.
I know people don't wanna hurt me.
Well, I really have a question about my race, and the statement was interesting and made sense.
Karaoke Dispute
Do you find it wrong/unexpected for easy going, understanding adults to get mad at you for posting karaoke online? Like it probably is illegal. You know, it gets taken down if it's illegal. It's not a sin. It's allowed.
Facebook - Dr. Phil
No, I don't fall in love using the internet..
..I gone and done been on it 7 years consuming the smorgasboard of time I possess with no real friends on or off! (Save for the ones I made on it! Acquaintence posters on IMDb -plus there are some such others..)
I think love can happen on the internet.
I love the internet! <3 <3
And yes I had some real friends/"friends."
..I gone and done been on it 7 years consuming the smorgasboard of time I possess with no real friends on or off! (Save for the ones I made on it! Acquaintence posters on IMDb -plus there are some such others..)
I think love can happen on the internet.
I love the internet! <3 <3
And yes I had some real friends/"friends."
Schedule
I plan to take 2 courses in the summer and 3 at a time during the year. I will graduate I bet by next summer when I turn 30.
I still wanna watch Dr. Phil as of now, goes by quickly. I can put Ellen on when I post online. Sorry Ellen, maybe I will be able to watch 2 shows, tho. Seems you've moved on, in a way.. I love yer show, hope you have fun on it.
I still wanna watch Dr. Phil as of now, goes by quickly. I can put Ellen on when I post online. Sorry Ellen, maybe I will be able to watch 2 shows, tho. Seems you've moved on, in a way.. I love yer show, hope you have fun on it.
Change of Plans
Musc Theory is too early to get there by bus easily, so I decided an AA in General Studies would be better. I am not so sure about the Student Work. I think I wanna focus on school and getting it done cuz it's a lotta work. I know I have no credit in math and science. I need 2 classes each. Also, a speech or communications course, English II, and if my other Liberal GS courses don't work. I might do english and math in the summer. I did 2 summer courses in high school. These courses are not as much on memorizing and probably aren't as hard.. like their writing. They tend to just adjust your writing as pleasured. Will be nice to get it over with with a good B. I will try A, tho, of course. Also, this is supposedly the more academic community college.
FAFSA
I submitted it! I will supposedly get about $15,000 for each summer and spring. I did sign up for Work Study, but we'll see if I'll last, like if they have part time work.
Summer, will probably take 2 ed courses for Summer A.. We'll see about that, tho. 1 is online, and the other is 3 1/2 hours 2 days a week I think. I'm very interested in the live class course. Maybe, I will just take that Summer A. I need 15 classroom hours in early June, I think.
Summer, will probably take 2 ed courses for Summer A.. We'll see about that, tho. 1 is online, and the other is 3 1/2 hours 2 days a week I think. I'm very interested in the live class course. Maybe, I will just take that Summer A. I need 15 classroom hours in early June, I think.
Community College
The one I will take 2 Ed courses in the summer at and in the fall and spring music has an athletics thing you can check in and work out at tho. Beats the stress of a graded class? I bet there was ill will behind this particular cancelation, however. I wanted to be able to do ballet. Like to be safe. My dad kept telling me I have to practice if ballet is a big dream. It does take practice. Don't want him driving me in old age like that, tho.
Interesting Analyzation
I see Ellen on TV and she just says something easy and everyone claps and smiles. Her job altogether is hard, tho, I feel. I'm just saying the nature of it. Like, she doesn't have to say something that wouldn't be entertaining if someone else said it. She is entertaining, I mean. I'm just talking about "what" she has to do, not much, cuz she's Ellen. They are only laughing cuz -she- said it.
If I say something cool it's nothing and cuza race and worthless intelligence.
If I say something cool it's nothing and cuza race and worthless intelligence.
Disney
After doing ab workouts, I don't know why, but I was desensitized to Space Mountain. A kiddy ride? That think used to freak me out!
I spent $10 and $15 and won 4 stuffed animals. I gave 2 to my parents. I am left with an orange turtle I like. I'm on a pursuit with a plan.
I spent $10 and $15 and won 4 stuffed animals. I gave 2 to my parents. I am left with an orange turtle I like. I'm on a pursuit with a plan.
Monday, February 2, 2015
Dr. Phil - Facebook
Whoever killed her obviously most likely knew her, and whoever was involved knew somebody.
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Sense out criminals before they commit the crime. How? If you pay attention, you might sense things.
Why would the dad think he'd be in his daughter's will? That cannot be a possibe motive for someone. Someone at work could have done it. Anyone fill in her position?
If the dad hired someone to do it, I dunno, it didn't make sense to me at 1st. Did they get DNA?
Do they know who the dad knows? You can't just go up to someone and tell them to do this.
It reminds me of the case of Jon Benet Ramsy. :( The parents did not seem dangerous. My parents get upset at me I feel for no reason and it comes a time they need me to make social and emotional sacrifices for them to "feel good," while I wait in punishment and they work out the kinks. The only thing I can say that explains my case is that they think "the real world" will be worse on me. I think my Gramma thought that my mom would be killed by the people in Orlando with the stress of cancer. When I thought things she did not like, she made annoying noises that pinpointed my mom's cancer. That can't be good. I'd get in secret trouble. My relatives are at me, I feel. I got upset at my gramma. If I had to blame anyone for my mom's death would be herself, my dad, and famous people, but in that order of suspect of what really did it and what was out of control. My dad boasts almost killing his sister. I'd like to see that get on national television. I was conscious at 3 years old, too. I guess he just had hate. I think my dad wants more of a relationship with me before I get old and leave home and the rest of his life is different. Okay, so if I die we blame the burgers, but it was done with variety. I don't know what got into me. I wasn't finished growing up. The diet I was on sustained me thru much of my young adult life. I just was tired, don't cook, and was under the impression to leave the table. I don't turn over thoughts of inappropriate behavior. I'm GONE!
I wonder if the dad has any known friends like himself who would do it. I also care if he didn't do it, but this could prove him innocent.
I hope my post is okay.
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Sense out criminals before they commit the crime. How? If you pay attention, you might sense things.
Why would the dad think he'd be in his daughter's will? That cannot be a possibe motive for someone. Someone at work could have done it. Anyone fill in her position?
If the dad hired someone to do it, I dunno, it didn't make sense to me at 1st. Did they get DNA?
Do they know who the dad knows? You can't just go up to someone and tell them to do this.
It reminds me of the case of Jon Benet Ramsy. :( The parents did not seem dangerous. My parents get upset at me I feel for no reason and it comes a time they need me to make social and emotional sacrifices for them to "feel good," while I wait in punishment and they work out the kinks. The only thing I can say that explains my case is that they think "the real world" will be worse on me. I think my Gramma thought that my mom would be killed by the people in Orlando with the stress of cancer. When I thought things she did not like, she made annoying noises that pinpointed my mom's cancer. That can't be good. I'd get in secret trouble. My relatives are at me, I feel. I got upset at my gramma. If I had to blame anyone for my mom's death would be herself, my dad, and famous people, but in that order of suspect of what really did it and what was out of control. My dad boasts almost killing his sister. I'd like to see that get on national television. I was conscious at 3 years old, too. I guess he just had hate. I think my dad wants more of a relationship with me before I get old and leave home and the rest of his life is different. Okay, so if I die we blame the burgers, but it was done with variety. I don't know what got into me. I wasn't finished growing up. The diet I was on sustained me thru much of my young adult life. I just was tired, don't cook, and was under the impression to leave the table. I don't turn over thoughts of inappropriate behavior. I'm GONE!
I wonder if the dad has any known friends like himself who would do it. I also care if he didn't do it, but this could prove him innocent.
I hope my post is okay.
Problem
They keep controlling my mind and get so mad if I get a little upset as I shrug off their thoughts.
HOW DO I SHRUG OFF THE THOUGHTS?
HOW DO I SHRUG OFF THE THOUGHTS?
Chances in Life Stored Away
Seeing as I am a social critter and my chances are high, I don't want the members of this experiment to be able to blow it. I do not play the game, if I say something I don't like it has to happen. You won't get far along. And you are not my boss over me. What do I speak of? Making a good impression on people who really like me.
Psychologically Well
I don't really claim to have ever had a problem simply by the fact that someone other than me is getting attention. I a psychologically well, IMO (in my opinion.)
I had something interesting to say but forget - ah, yes, if it's to punish me for cursing about noises in my room I get mad. If it's that I'm in trouble every time I walk into the room or do/say something, I get mad.
They want me to look bad like others. It might sound crazy, but if it weren't so then they wouldn't feel guilty reading this and do something to offend me or hurt my feelings just to make themselves feel better that they are right.
I know there are people out there who do this. Who, I don't seem to know. Well, I'm not afraid to point my finger.
I had something interesting to say but forget - ah, yes, if it's to punish me for cursing about noises in my room I get mad. If it's that I'm in trouble every time I walk into the room or do/say something, I get mad.
They want me to look bad like others. It might sound crazy, but if it weren't so then they wouldn't feel guilty reading this and do something to offend me or hurt my feelings just to make themselves feel better that they are right.
I know there are people out there who do this. Who, I don't seem to know. Well, I'm not afraid to point my finger.
I'm worthless!
Did you know people tell me I am not worth it to my face in my place? A ha ha! Imagine if all you were told that. }:) A ha ha! Fine! It must be race.
No, I am thankful to have anything and daunted by its authority over mine. I do not really get the peace I deserve, tho. I was great. I dunno what's not in it in other folks. Jokes.
Don't go dig into my life and take it the wrong way. I had my turn, but I never get what I wanted. I just didn't know that I should not take a lotta courses in college. It's not as important as passing..
No, I am thankful to have anything and daunted by its authority over mine. I do not really get the peace I deserve, tho. I was great. I dunno what's not in it in other folks. Jokes.
Don't go dig into my life and take it the wrong way. I had my turn, but I never get what I wanted. I just didn't know that I should not take a lotta courses in college. It's not as important as passing..
What goes on in my life now is pretty bad. I do things, right, on my blog, but what is allowed to go on around me is preposterous. People tackle me as soon as I enter the room. My relationships are severed and beaten at. I can't even reign free thought without some pip squeak of a reaction emitting from some far reach of this universe. "It's all 'related.'" No, it wasn't. I just said I couldn't even think about anything social in my life without running into a road block that seems to lead to more road blocks.
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